本文通过动作描述以及叙述评论两个层面对同性恋叙述中第一人称“我”的施动性进行分析。结果发现在同性恋身份认知的四个阶段，施动性逐步上升，叙述者对自身责任的话语构建发生了微妙的变化，对问题身份从推脱到接受。这样的叙述策略是同性恋叙述者寻求与主流社会道德立场的一致的努力，在话语层面合理化、正常化自己的“问题身份”。而另一方面，从低到高的施动性话语构建也表明叙述者对性别身份的完全自知自治，由此可见边缘人群的身份并非完全受制于主流话语体系而是主流话语体系的制约以及个人的重构力量的博弈和抗衡，正是这种博弈和抗衡使得“问题身份”变得自然、合理。

This paper scrutinizes the discursive construction of agency in a Chinese gay man’s narratives and finds that agency is constructed both at the clausal level as well as discoursal level. And along the homosexuality identity development agency of the first person pronoun“I” builds up.“I” deflects the responsibility for the action of being“a gay man” and then claims the responsibility. It is argued that the narrative strategies adjust the agentive status of the first person pronoun“I” and normalize the“problematic identity”, which shows the conflict and negotiation between the homosexual individual and the heterosexuality hegemony.

"二我差"是所有的第一人称叙述不可避免的现象,不同的"我"既合一又分裂,无论是虚构的还是纪实的体裁,始终贯穿着这种分裂造成的张力。叙述者"此我"与人物"昔我"的分裂,既可以是时间上先后造成的,也可以是自我意识分裂形成的。有时候这种差别表现在语言风格上,有时候表现在意识上,是两种主体意识对话语权的争夺。"二我差"甚至可以构成戏剧化的情节结构,此时二我的分裂成为叙述推进的根本动力所在。

The self - differentiation is an inevitable phenomenon of all of the first person narratives. The different first person narrator includes both unity and division,the tension caused by this kind of fission is through to the end,whether the genre is fiction or documentary. The reason for the fission between present narrator and past narrator are as follows:time order and self - awareness fission. Sometimes this kind of difference displays in the language style,sometimes displays in conscious-ness,and two kinds of subject consciousnesses are in the fight for the right to speak. The self - differ-entiation can even form a dramatic plot structure,then the self - differentiation becomes the funda-mental driving force for promoting the narrative.